Life Never Remains "As Is"

Thank God that life never remains as is. Can you imagine if your life came off some bargain rack at Walmart where everything was $2, but as is. So I'm glad that things change, life evolves and challenges arise in order to help this crazy, fabulous life of mind to shape shift into something new.

This week has been one of those weeks where the way things are yesterday, will not be the way they are tomorrow. For the first time in a long time, I'm actually unemployed. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I have wanted to be able to focus on raising my son, taking care of my philanthropies, focusing on studies and writing, but now that I'm there I'm afraid that I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I have this horrible nagging feeling like I'm faking a sick day or doing something wrong or that there is something big I'm supposed to be doing and I'm not.

To top that off, I've become something of a single mother as of late. Hubs has gone to Houston to work on hurricane claims for the next month or two so Hambone and I are on our own. This situation has two faces. On one side, it's going to be very hard to have Hubs gone and to do the things around the house and with Hambone that he did. On the other side, it will be nice to have some 'me' time and refocus myself, get re-centered and be rejuvinated by the time he returns. Needless to say, I'm not sure what to expect out of the next month or so but I know it will be an adventure.

I'm also trying to get things moving in a positive direction as far as my ministry goals. I have a possible opportunity to do some ministering and preaching at a local assisted living home for Alzheimer's patients, which would be great because I have a special place in my heart for them. We'll see though how that pans out. Further, I've taken up selling Avon which I think will be a lot of fun and if any of you are interested in purchasing anything, let me know. You can now order via my Avon website and the company will have it delivered right to you. PERFECT! I think this is an awesome new feature. Also, it only cost me $10 to start up with Avon which is a major difference when compared to the start up fees of other company's like Mary Kay, etc. Anyway, ask me about it if you have questions but I think this is going to be a great way to make a little extra 'me' cash for whatever I want it to go to (hair, massages, charity, Christmas presents, whatever).

So, this is me today, right now. Come tomorrow, things could be completely different. We'll hope in only things good. God is great and will always provide for me. I have to ward off my tendencies to be a doubting Thomas and I need to believe, as Christ asked me to do, and then to know confidently that no matter which rapid I'm rafting on today, I'm not alone and I have the best company imaginable. I pray you all know this belief in your heart and if not, ask Jesus to show you the way he showed Thomas at the end of John 20. God bless you this day and always.

Thank Heaven for Little Boys

Two and a half years ago, hubs and I were blessed with the birth of our amazing son, "Hambone" (his bloggy name because he's such a comic). Hambone was my miracle as I have PCOD and I was told I'd never have children. Anyway, bla, bla, bla...I LOVE him deeply.

Today, I got a phone call from the daycare he attends, which by the way doesn't mean I'm a bad mother because he's in daycare (just needed to say that), that he had fallen from the playground slide and gashed his chin open. Lord knows that those scary words are not easy for any mother to hear. Anyway, I calmly packed up my stuff, grabbed my mother (who I work with) and drove as fast as I could to get him. So I'm thinking that when I walk in his chin is going to be dangling off, he'll have a concussion and more than likely a broken arm. Have I mentioned I have an overactive imagination and a slight flare for the dramatic (my inner Scarlett O'Hara)? Praise the Lord, the poor little guy just had a small gash under his chin. It's wasn't bad, but it was rather deep, so we took him to the ER. About an hour, an "I don't want this" armband moment and a little bit of medical glue...we were all calmer and happier. The doctor said that had the gash been a little further up his chin and on the front, Hambone would have needed a stitch or two, but the glue would work fine. Thank God it was nothing more than that.

Last year, about this time, "Loretta", a long time friend of mine, had a daycare incident with her son but he broke his little leg, needed lot of medical attention and had a lower body cast for the better part of several months. I admired her so much, and still do, for the strength she had to persevere through that to be stronger for her baby. I think it's something all mothers do; love so deeply that nothing else really matters.

So, a sigh of relief today for this momma, but God help me as I have a feeling this is only the beginning for me and my little boy.