Thank God that life never remains as is. Can you imagine if your life came off some bargain rack at Walmart where everything was $2, but as is. So I'm glad that things change, life evolves and challenges arise in order to help this crazy, fabulous life of mind to shape shift into something new.
This week has been one of those weeks where the way things are yesterday, will not be the way they are tomorrow. For the first time in a long time, I'm actually unemployed. I'm not sure how I feel about this. I have wanted to be able to focus on raising my son, taking care of my philanthropies, focusing on studies and writing, but now that I'm there I'm afraid that I'm not quite sure what to do with myself. I have this horrible nagging feeling like I'm faking a sick day or doing something wrong or that there is something big I'm supposed to be doing and I'm not.
To top that off, I've become something of a single mother as of late. Hubs has gone to Houston to work on hurricane claims for the next month or two so Hambone and I are on our own. This situation has two faces. On one side, it's going to be very hard to have Hubs gone and to do the things around the house and with Hambone that he did. On the other side, it will be nice to have some 'me' time and refocus myself, get re-centered and be rejuvinated by the time he returns. Needless to say, I'm not sure what to expect out of the next month or so but I know it will be an adventure.
I'm also trying to get things moving in a positive direction as far as my ministry goals. I have a possible opportunity to do some ministering and preaching at a local assisted living home for Alzheimer's patients, which would be great because I have a special place in my heart for them. We'll see though how that pans out. Further, I've taken up selling Avon which I think will be a lot of fun and if any of you are interested in purchasing anything, let me know. You can now order via my Avon website and the company will have it delivered right to you. PERFECT! I think this is an awesome new feature. Also, it only cost me $10 to start up with Avon which is a major difference when compared to the start up fees of other company's like Mary Kay, etc. Anyway, ask me about it if you have questions but I think this is going to be a great way to make a little extra 'me' cash for whatever I want it to go to (hair, massages, charity, Christmas presents, whatever).
So, this is me today, right now. Come tomorrow, things could be completely different. We'll hope in only things good. God is great and will always provide for me. I have to ward off my tendencies to be a doubting Thomas and I need to believe, as Christ asked me to do, and then to know confidently that no matter which rapid I'm rafting on today, I'm not alone and I have the best company imaginable. I pray you all know this belief in your heart and if not, ask Jesus to show you the way he showed Thomas at the end of John 20. God bless you this day and always.